Starting simple and fresh, its not everyday you can clear your mind especially if your an immature teenager that is going to be 16 in a few days then sure, why not, humiliate yourself. Never once in my life I would of thought to end up in this position.

Alone.

Weak.

Bullied.

Yeah I sorta live in a judgmental world.

I've done things in my past I wish I could forget and run away from but unfortunately I cant. It comes back and haunts me to the point I want to rip my hair out. Psychotic? Nope not yet. Mentally stable? Probably.

Have a really close friend done something that can never be forgotten? At least I would say she was close. All this time I lied saying I was fine or it didn't bother me which quite frankly it did but it doesn't matter anymore, We were through. The thought of being in love with an American boy was my dream, he is from Chicago but we don't speak to each other anymore. Yeah my summer was crappier than I thought.

I always tried to get even, and by doing this I ignored my current boyfriend and gave him some crappy excuse which caused him to read my message without a reply.

Gosh I'm an awful person.